Birthday Boy

Knox was one yesterday...with that milestone comes a flood of emotions for me. But, I am going to try and keep this about him. I will deal with my feelings later. He woke up hungry and early, as usual, grunting in his bed. After some milk, we got dressed. Carson came smiling down the hall, and the first thing he said was, "Happy first birthday, Knox." So sweet. Then we had some donuts and sang Happy Birthday. We rushed Maisy off to preschool, and then we went to the bookstore to pick out a birthday book. He chose one about cars, trucks, planes, and boats. He is really into vehicles right now. He had some more milk, got some balloons, and then we picked up Maisy. Knox took a short nap on the way home. After lunch Mrs. Sheree came over with Jack. We opened her present, had cookies and played. Another nap and then we played outside. After Jeremy got home we ate spaghetti, a family favorite, had cake and opened our presents. Knox was really tired by this point, but enjoyed the festivities, I think. He was really cautious with the cake, which surprised me. I think he just ate too much spaghetti to really get into it. It was lovely night. He took a bath and went right to sleep.

At one Knox is curious, happy, very active, and quiet (unless he wants something). He is rough and tough. He has taken some good spills and rarely cries. He is sensitive...loud noises really scare him. So do small dogs, Carson/Maisy screaming/wrestling, and most recently his bath toys. He gets this panicked look of terror on his face when he is scared. It breaks my heart. He loves balloons, Aspen, water bottles, cars, Maisy's baby stroller, playing in water, and being outside. He still spits up, which is one thing I can't wait for him to out grow. He did it 3 times this morning. He loves the color yellow, at least I think so. He likes to tickle your skin when it peeks out of your shirt on your back or tummy. He loves to nurse, which is going to be a difficult habit to break, but we are working on it. While he is not saying very much (this, that, get it), I do think he is smart. He understands everything I ask him to do. He has the most beautiful blue eyes and a giggle that melts my heart. He is my baby, now and forever.

As for me...it was my last first birthday. While Knox is still very much a baby, even more so than Carson and Maison were at this age, I still feel like it is almost over. I love my babies! I love playing with them, feeding them, all of it. It makes my heart hurt to think it is almost over...forever. I am beginning to realize that I need to be needed. He needs me now, but not for much longer. Wanting your momma is totally different than needing her. He needs me. Carson and Maisy want me, but don't need me anymore. It makes me happy that we are raising independent, smart children, but it just goes too fast. I have a feeling Mr. Knox might be the most independent of the three, once he gets a little bigger. He is so strong willed and temperamental, I think he will be a tough kid. Sigh...I am just so happy he is healthy and seemingly well-adjusted. I just pray next year we are celebrating under the same wonderful circumstances.